Bye bye 2019

Oh my, what a year 2019... Hard and full of emotions, hard decisions, love, heart breaks, crushes and situations you know are not gonna work out, but you some what remain hopeful. At times... I just felt like giving up but I decided to keep strong.... Man did this year shape me to the woman I am today. I am so proud of who I am and how far I've come in my journey. I've had my amazing job for 3 years now and can't even tell you or describe the beautiful places I've seen and the lovely people I have meet along the way. I had so many lovely plans for this year and let me tell... you most of them all went to shit, but I know for a fact that God or whatever you believe in has a plan set out there for you, and if things don't work out don't remain sad you have to trust the process, because better things will eventually always come. We lose love, we lose people, sometimes we even lose our self; but we need to remain focused on our goals and stay strong and keep focused. You might see me here looking "cute" and "strong" but in reality I am a little warrior most people don't know of... people have no idea all I have struggled, even to the point of being  incapacitated and thinking I was never going to be able to continue my life and follow my dreams. But this girl is strong! It didn't  happen over night you need to train your mind to become so strong and independent  you don't have to rely on others for your happiness or validation. You have to do things for your self and decide to make the change in your head, in your mind.

For this 2020

 Look at yourself in the mirror and say:

I am strong,
I am beautiful,
I am loved,
I am independent,
I am gonna make my dreams happen and I am going to live happy and healthy.

You can make things happen, but you have to work for them and remain positive, remember sometimes we go through periods of unfortunate events that seem like an endless nightmare. Stay strong and never forget your goal.

Remember its not rejection its re- direction

Sometimes people don't appreciate you and what you have to offer and sooner or later they will see they have lost you, when you were right in front of them. Move on and you will see better things will come, everything always gets better never worst.